Wednesday, November 4, 2009
another lesson learned,
boys are not men, and in this case,
i'm referring to the mentality of some very specific *men* i've had the pleasure(?)(snort) of
*sharing*(i use that loosely) time with as of late.
men in body, boys in mentality.
obviously i'm still carrying *feelings* of some sort or another about them/this
or i wouldn't be referring to them in such a judgemental way...
i have also been stoopid lately,
have had stoopid moments.
am carrying feelings about that as well.
living and loving and learning
g r o w i n g.
for me, anyway.
the *growing* part.
this night, the night i took this pic,
i had a *badbye* with a person who i saw as a kindred spirit(see previous *memories and moments* post from oct 28th).
*bad*bye in lieu of a *good*bye, get it?
i live in love
i'm alone again.
and that's actually ok
it's actually good
because it weeds out the ones who *should* be weeded out,
it hurts because i carried some sort of *expectation* of who they were/are,
and that's where i am on my journey,
figuring out how to remain open
and in a state of love and life
and my.self. regardless of what's being *reflected* back to me from partners along the way.
*b r e a t h i n g*
that's what i just did right here.
that's what this post is.
yay for that.
yay for love.
yay for being a child of the universe.
xoxo lovelies :)
Posted by d at 8:45:00 AM